My psychiatrist, at our last meeting, told me that I'm 'very pessimistic'. Hearing it said out-loud really put the whole thing into perspective. I'm pessimistic. I criticize beyond being cynical because I don't know when to shut my mouth. I mostly stay home because I'm afraid that I'll fail at something out there. I'm incapable of dedicating myself to anything. The more I see, the more negativity I feel, and I come to detest familiarity. The mood-swings intensify it all. I'm complex --I'm cynical about that too, and I'm very pessimistic.
But I'm working on it.
I'm working so hard.
