You know,

I'm not going to fuck up anymore.

I've learned enough about making mistakes and feel it's time that I just...forget about it all.
I'm afraid of many things. To kick the feeling, I deem my fears unimportant and become, well, stubborn. By that time I'm so nailed down, one fear leading to another and indifference being the change.

Change.
I've been beating it back without giving it a chance.